Sep 15, 2009 ' 9:29 PM Y
Seven Days
Seven more days and I'll officially be 21. But does that actually make any difference? Will that make me more popular? Will turning 21 make me smarter? Will turning 21 make me a better person? No... I'll still be me... Blur, cubby and korean song-lover.
I have been feeling upset and down for the pass few days, and I think all my close friends actually noticed it before I even know it myself. Okay, I admit that I was angry. But not at you guys, at least not all of you.
I was angry at the fact that I was forced to cancel my BBQ party. I was angry at the fact that when I asked for other suggestions, everyone else came around to ask me "Then how?!"
PEOPLE!!!! Don't ever ask me "Then how?!", when I have already clearly ASKED for your help!!! If I knew "Then how?!", I won't even be asking for suggestion, isn't it?!
And since everyone only bothered to ask me "Then how?!", the end result is that nothing will happen. YES! I'm not going to be the one planning for anything!!!! I won't be the one fixing dates and wait for everyone to agree on a common ground!!! Just date me, and if I'm happy, I'll go!!!
I AM PISSED!!!!
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Thank goodness I still have some friends who actually cared to suggest a few ideas. Thank you Michael, Jasmine and Yanting.
Thank you, Michael, for asking me out for dinner...
Thank you, Jasmine, for consistantly giving me ideas, and offering to stay with me on the day. Thank you for taking the day off from work in advance, even though the BBQ was wrecked.
Thank you, Yanting, for even asking what I want for my Bdae even though you are thousands of miles away. I really, Really, REALLY appreciate it.
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2AM - This Song
Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
Even though I want to dress you in pretty clothes
Even though I want to take you to nice places
This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
How can I have you?
My position doesn't suit you,
Regardless, can you stay by my side?
The only thing I can give to you is this song
All I have is this voice,
Even if this makes you laugh,
I'll still sing, I hope you'll accept it.
Even if you say its okay,
Even if you say its okay if I have you,
Even if you say you are happy everyday,
Even if you say you don't want anything else
Pretty and good things. Fun and cool things.
You obviously want these things too, Baby.
You know that if you stay by my side, I can't do these things.
Regardless, can you stay by my side?
I only have this song,
I really have nothing but this voice,
Even if this makes you laugh,
I'll still sing, I hope you'll accept it.
I hope you'll accept it.
